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so tell me how i got here? how did i get to the point where my BD has broken me down and hurt me once again. i guess TRUE love never dies and it definitely doesn't decrease in value. VALUE? i valued what we had... well i guess the point is i value what we have but how could he. how could he let that happen. i call that the unforgiveable. i guess! why didn't he tell me though. like come on. my heart is always on his side. how could he not know that. how did he miss that lesson. his initials are tattooed on my heart no matter who i'm with or where i'm at. (jordin sparks huh) lol but yet and still i can laugh but its not funny. its not funny at all. even the laughter hurts. i just can't pull it together this time. i'd just rather act like it didn't happen i'd rather act like i don't know him but how can i!? this is madness... the exact definition of madness. MADNESS! i can't really describe what i feel or why and i can't show it really but its nothing that anyone should ever feel. my heart is done its closed off and shut down and he says i'm making it worse by having nothing to say anymore. but to me there is nothing worst than how i feel. i'm one up always. "F" it!!!! i'll just let it be and hopefully this doesn't ruin me. hopefully i just think its this bad and tomorrow i'll be more rational. .... NOPE "F" ration. what he did was not RATIONAL. just whatever. i'm so over it... or not!

i promised to seal every post with a kiss... this one is just not as passionate as the rest... sorry

***MUAH***
keepin it pretti