BOYS!!!

why is it that every dude i know has been getting caught up lately or just been doing the dumbest shit ever. too many hurting females out here. they better watch out.

okay so today i got a call from an old boo! so unexpected and dumb as hell. see this is actually my most recent ex if u can say we were actually a couple. but he lives in AL and we've been friends for a while and then he tried to WIFE me from a distance. now mind u i was down for this dude. well i cheated on him after he disappointed me real quick but for a whole month i was all him lol. that sounds bad but whatever. u would have to know the whole story. so all of a sudden he got distant. FYI bad idea to get distant when there is already a huge distance between us literally. so anyway. we broke up on some childish drrunken text that my friend sent and i never heard from him until today. this was almost 2 months ago and now he talkin about he miss me. i don't get it. but i think this kinda put things in perspective for me. i think the reason why i'm so dead inside is becuz of him. like i felt like no matter what me and him would alwasy be me and him and he just let go with no words or nothing. like i didn't mean shit. so then i got so focused on dougie that i thought he would fill that void but it didn't happen like that. i just realized it. dougie was my physical and benjy (my ex) he was my emotional. he had me wrapped up and then he said "f" me. so i been mad at dougie when i shouldn't be. i mean i really do have feelings for dougie i mean mad feelings but i can't expect him to feel the same. i forgot how easy things were when benjy was in the picture. thenits like my dumbass BD makes things so much worse. i try to give him the benefit of the doubt and he just ruins everything all over again. granted if i could just fuse all 3 of them together i would have one cute ass, honest ass, loving ass, motivated ass dumbass boyfriend lol! but that just can't happen so forget it all!

all i need is a sugar daddy and i'm set lol

***MUAH***
keepin it pretti