MY LOVE LIFE!

well, this is where things get a little rough. i seem nice right?! my pic is kinda cute! my heart is in the right place and i have plans for the future! i mean i'm not crazy or psychotic and i don't stink i'm not money hungry and even though i'm a brat i will spoil the hell outta the next person. so here is the question: why can't i find a man? like a real man. i mean i was just in a 3 year long relationship and it didn't last because as usual i'm the best but i guess people don't want the best lol. but seriously i don't know why males have to be so dumb. like i guess i changed a lot for my last boyfriend. i figured if i did everything right and it still didn't work out then it can't be my fault. and low and behold i was right.

so now i'm single for the first time in my life it feels like. and i kinda like it but then again i'm stuck. like i have this dude in my life and i'll call him dougie! Dougie is my baby. like he is so different and the best thing about him is that he doesn't try to game me. which is weird for me becuz i'm used to being worshipped and all. and he's just like "yeah whatever, you're my boo". he don't say those famous lines like "i'm different from other dudes" which he is or the "baby i love u" lie. he won't sit up and tell me i'm so beautiful all day but he will tell me what he likes. he's just one of those ass's who u can't help but like. he's so backwards, yes is no and no is yes. but i love it. plus he's like extra cute with the prettiest itty bitty brown eyes i've ever seen on a grown man (lol) and these lips that just happen to be crucial as ever. he is awesome but i don't know what to do with him most days. its like everything is there except for the seriousness. like i said i don't really want a boyfriend but i wouldn't mind being with him. i don't know maybe he doesn't feel the same and thats why we're the way we are. i definitely try not to complain but i am a brat and i want what i want. he thinks he's my kryptonite or something.

regardless of whatever i need to get unstuck. i need to find a way to make things clear between me and him or cut some strings becuz i refuse to be the girl and sat around waiting on something that never came. bottom line i'm kinda a hot commodity lol and he doesn't want me dating other people so... obviously someone needs to step up becuz i would hate to disappoint him. i try not to do too much wrong becuz KARMA!? that bitch is a BITCH!!!

can't wait to see how this works out. hopefully for the best... even if the best isn't what i want at the moment.

***MUAH***
keepin it pretti